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My life as a non-smoker


This March will be two years since I last touched a cigarette. It was disgusting! It felt like my lungs collapsed when I inhaled and it tasted BERK… When I put it down, I knew that this was going to be my last cigarette.

I’ve been told many times that “once a smoke, always a smoker”. I for one am curious to see if that truly was my last cigarette.

I suppose it could go either way. Both my parents were smokers. My dad quite around the time he became a dad and never took it up again. He is today one of these annoying non-smokers that are bothered immensely by smokers. Sorry dad, but it is annoying! My mother didn’t smoke during her pregnancies but she’s what I would call an emotional smoker, meaning when life got hard, she picked it up again. I can totally relate to that! Once in a while, when I find life to be particularity hard, I still get the urge to want to light up! I then remember how painful it was and I quickly discard that idea. But the thought is always there. Maybe this is what is meant by “once a smoke, always a smoker”?

I started smoking when I was around 13 or 14. All the cool kids in school were doing it and since I was definitely a cool kid 😜, I was doing it too. Truth be told, it did help my social life a lot! I could strike up a conversation with anyone! Just go and ask someone for a light or sharing tricks on how to keep the cigarette dry when it was pouring down! Anything worked, as long as I had a smoke in my hand.

Naturally I was told about the harmful effects of smoking, but I didn’t care. When you are young, you are indestructible. All the sickness and such would never happen to me! And I knew how my parents had quit smoking, so I just figured I could quit whenever I want!

During most of my twenties I was on the pill. I had heard about complications with women who took the pill, were smokers and over 30. So my idea was to quit smoking when I turned 30.

I did quit when I turned 30, but it only lasted for two or three weeks. So that didn’t work. I had cut down drastically but I was still hooked!

A year later on 19 May 2012 I took the little infamous strip test and two little blue lines showed!

Shit shit shit!

My first thought was not “oh my god I am going to have a baby”. No, it was “oh shit, now I have to stop smoking!”.

It was difficult but I did it. I did it for me. I did it for this little thing growing inside of me. I knew that I wouldn’t be able to live with myself if I were to smoke. I wouldn’t be able to forgive myself. And that was stronger than the urge for smoking!

Needless to say, I feel much better today as a non-smoker as I ever did as a smoker. I am in so much better shape and exercising is so much more enjoyable, now that I can breath properly. Nonetheless, I don’t think I would change it though if I could. Being a smoker helped me manage some of my anxieties. I also met people that I wouldn’t have met otherwise – sad, but true.

There is one very interesting change I have noticed. I used to have quite a temper and get very angry. The first thing I would do would be to grab a cigarette. I was so worried about how to handle these rage fits without cigarettes. But as with so many things in life, it turns out I didn’t need another coping mechanisms for my rage. It seems that as cigarettes faded out of my life, so did the rage.


I am a happy non-smoker today, but I still remember what it was like to be a smoker and hear from non-smokers. They were really annoying. My dad was really annoying.

Sadly, I do find it smells unbelievably bad and disgusting that I prefer not to be around smokers. So even if I don’t want to, I have become my dad! I am sorry for all the smokers out there, but I have turned. Being a non-smoker is so much better than being a smoker!

There, I said it!

Finally, if you are sitting with this wish to stop but you think you could never. Then I have news for you! If I can do it, then so can you! Believe me!

Tell me about your struggles and maybe I can help you. Email me or comment below.

Let me know what you think of smokers in the comment section below.

Anne Louise

Living with stress and anxiety is draining and unhealthy. My coaching program helps you listen to your body’s signals and find your balance. This way you will feel great, calm and more confident.

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