Why haven’t I posted anything for a while? Several reasons. What I was telling myself is that I had no time and no inspiration, after all, my day was all about breast-feeding and nappy changes, what was there to write about?
In reality I think I was scared or ashamed. Why? Because I am not loosing the weight or eating like I wish to! I don’t have it all together!
I am even afraid to share this with you as I am writing this.
Aren’t I supposed to be your role model and have it all together in order to help you?!? How can I make you trust me to help you when I cant even help myself?
Well, the answer is pretty easy. I am human! I make mistakes and I don’t always have it all together. And I don’t at the moment.
The reason I chose to write this anyway is because I want you to know that it is ok! It is ok to not always have it all together and it is ok to “be bad” sometimes. It’s hard having 2 small children, especially when the little one doesn’t sleep yet (c.f. Sleepless in Luxembourg).
I see other moms having lost all their weight, mainly due to breast-feeding and running after the little ones. I am doing this too, but I don’t lose the weight. Why? Because I eat too much and I possibly don’t move around as much as I “should”.
Honestly, I like comforting myself with chocolate! Furthermore, I am at home all day, so I mostly have lunch in front of the TV and anyone who is familiar with weight loss knows that this is a very dangerous trap. You have no idea what you stuff your body with and most often it is the wrong thing and too much of it. You just don’t pay attention to what you eat because you are busy being hypnotized by the screen.
It’s called mindful eating; paying attention to what you eat and how you eat. Chew your food! Which leads me to my next excuse for my unhealthy lifestyle. I sometimes know I have to feed my baby soon and therefore eat really fast before the baby starts yelling for food. This of course makes it hard to mindfully eat and to chew every bite thoroughly.
So, here is me getting real with you and with myself. I mean, I will expect you to be honest with me and I therefore owe you the same! And it’s not just about being honest to your Health Coach or me being honest to my few, yet loyal readers, but also (and more importantly) to be honest to yourself!
We only have one life to live, the least we can do is to live it honestly!